Yaron

I cut again tonight. Now I keep limping, so it's getting hard to hide. I promised myself I wouldn't eat, but here I am, eating candy. I fucking hate myself. I can't stand this. Sometimes I wish I could cut all the fat off. I know it would kill me though. That's probably the only reason I haven't tried. Although it would be a nice way to die... Skinny. I'm on the phone with Yaron right now though. ^_^ I haven't talked to him in sooooooo long. I missed him so much. I can't wait to meet him someday in real life. GOD DAMMIT! My leg hurts... ;_; I feel sick from eating so much. I would purge it all, but I'm on the phone with Yaron.

I'm really nervous because I gave him the link to this journal. I'm afraid of what he'll think of me. I'm afraid he'll think I'm crazy (which I am, but that's not the point). Yaron, when you read this, if you read this, please forgive me for everything.